im pretty sane.

i realize that i havent written in awhile, but honestly i was waiting for some sort of event, or maybe a trip into crazy town to write about... surprisingly, i have been pretty sane the past couple weeks, even with the fertility meds totally in my system.

i havent screamed at anyone, or cried uncontrollably at inappropriate times, and i think ive been annoyed once. yeah, 'annoyed,' i cant even use the word 'angry' because it hasnt gotten that far. so maybe with all my worrying about crazy pants mcgee coming back, i am more aware this time and have been able to control it. or maybe the meds this time around just werent strong enough to make a difference... i am on a lower dosage than the last time.

i will say that unless we achieve the big goal this month then we will be forced to wait it out a little while thanks to wils last job and their terrible practices of taking care of employees...

so wils last day at his previous employer was august 2nd, he went and outprocessed and was told that the last day of our health insurance was july 31st. that jerk company cancelled our insurance before his last day so that we wouldnt be covered through august. i will be so angry if there is a health insurance deduction taken out of his last paycheck because the last check will include three weeks of vacation that he never took, which really could be these next three weeks that we do not have health insurance. ugh. and the new health insurance doesnt start until september 1st.

long story short, i was supposed to go back in twice this month for labs and other things to see how the fertility meds are working and if they actually made my non-functioning body ovulate, but with no insurance i cant really go back in. which also means that if we didnt get pregnant this month then i should be on another round of the meds at the end of august but that also wont happen because of the lack of insurance. poop.