christmas trash.

so ive come to the realization that while not all pregnancies are the same, my pregnancies are similar with little tweaks here and there...

this time around i am super emotional, i can cry at the drop of a hat and whats worse is that i am also getting totally angry outta nowhere. which is really weird because in my non-pregnant life im not normally an angry person. but these next 7 months- watch out!

another similar difference is the vomitting. i threw up a ton with avery and i am throwing up just as much with this little lime in the belly. (the baby is the size of a lime now...) how big is my baby in a comparative way that i would understand like food

with my first little sweetness the vomitting was short and sweet if you will. it was kinda like taking out the trash after youve been on vacation for a week so theres really not all the much but you feel like you should be taking it out anyway but it takes no time because theres like one bag and the can is super light. with baby 2.0 its more like taking out the trash on the first pick up day after christmas... oh my gosh, no one wants that job. theres boxes, and bags, and wrapping paper, and all the leftover food from having tons of family over. and on top of that theres all of the regular day to day trash that has built up because during the holidays the trash pick up isnt as frequent or regular. you feel like theres crap everywhere and it takes hours to get all the trash accumulated and outta the house. and then when youre done youre all tired and exhausted and you feel like now the outside of your house looks all trashy because all the cans are filled up so you have boxes next to the can and the wind is blowin it around... you get the picture.

so im just hoping that i will have the magical 2nd trimester people always talk about where they totally stop vomitting and they have all of their energy back and everything is rainbows and unicorns.

my own hell.

i totally just experienced the worst thing of my life. yes, the WORST.

me and the dino are hanging out and i finally get our lazy selves together to go to the store. stells is completely out of food after her bowl this morning so i am forced to go.

anyway, i go out to the car to put ave in and i see a tiny yellow-white spider on the door handle... i HATE spiders no matter how small, theres just too many legs and it totally creeps me out. so as im looking at the door handle and trying to figure out where i can quickly grab and open without fear of that terrible eight legged evilness touching me, i notice that there is a huge brown spider on my sleeve. of course i scream like a girl and drop the diaper bag thats in the spider hand onto the ground. and after furiously shaking my arm until i am satisfied that the second ecounter of evil is no longer on any part of me, i finally put avery in his seat and buckle him up.

i totally have the heebie jeebies at this point. i open my door and when i do, a bunch of crap falls, kinda like in the springtime when you go out to your car and theres pollen everywhere so crap goes flying everytime you open a door... anyway, the crap falls and i take a closer look and realize that there are hundreds of little baby spiders all over the door frame and it was something spider related that fell. OH. MY. GOSH... im standing there almost frozen because i hate those little creepy mccreepersons so much that i almost failed to notice what i can only assume was the huge mama spider now on averys door.

im panicking at this point thinking that i have to save my child from the disgusting grossness that is spiders but i totally dont want to touch that door. but of course im a mom and i have to put my craziness aside, i open the door, huge mama spider comes around to the inside- DISGUSTING, and i reach in, quickly unhook ave and get him the heck outta there.

this was probably 20 minutes ago and i still feel like there are spiders all over me. my dad is dropping the car off tonight at the dealership to be detailed in the morning.



ok... maybe it wasnt this bad but it felt like it...

i disgust myself.

luckily for me this pregnancy is starting off much like my first, with the gagging and vomitting almost a constant, only this time around i am changing disgusting stinky poo poo diapers five times a day. even writing that last sentence made me a gag a little. ugh.

ok, so since my child is now pretty much completely on a regular food diet with meats and such, the poo poos smell absolutely terrible. i mean they smelled bad before i knew i was pregnant again... but now i cant even change one diaper without fear of vomitting on my own child. ive tried holding my breath, breathing through my mouth, and tying something around my face to block the smelly smells... nothing works.

last night while changing an especially stinky stink stink i started a gagging fit that i knew could only end in disaster. my child is lying half naked on the changing table when i realize that i am absolutely going to throw up, i cant walk away from him because he could fall, i cant just pick him up because hes naked and will most likely pee or poo on me as soon as cool air touches his little nakey self. so i do the only thing i can think to do... i vomitted into my own hand. GROSS.

this is my life now, vomitting into my hands. awesome.

a haiku

A Haiku

panera lady;
sorry you heard me throw up.
Pregnancy puking.

sorry ive been super lame by not updating anyone on anything in the fascinating life of me...

we've just been pretty busy with quite a few things going on. we went to the beach for a week, the littles turned the big O.N.E., went to the dr to see and hear the new bebeh, and in between all of that there has been a lot of gagging, dry heaving, and throwing up in public places like the panera bread.

first, beach. was a great time, but when a baby plays hard, they will also cry hard and be a grumples mcgee when they do not nap on time. and it was super easy to get him to take a nap when all he wanted to do was swim in the pool or play on the beach... ugh. but at least he liked it, that kid wouldve crawled the entire beach if we had let him. red, swollen knees from crawling in the sand all day- thats nothin for a little man on a mission! ha ha!



so after our week of fun came the week of craziness... trying to unpack, clean the house, and get everything ready for the big birthday. before now, i had absolutely no idea how much work goes into even the simplest of birthday parties. yikes. you invite all these people, have no idea who will show up, decorate, make all sorts of food, get all sorts of desserts, and then throw them all away a few days later because the number of guests that actually showed up was much less than what you had planned for... but the baby dino had a good time, and woke up the next day feeling like it was christmas when he saw all of his new toys again. and he clearly loved his chocolate cupcake.



next on the list we went back to the ob to get another ultrasound done to check on the newest little addition to our family. everything was great! they bumped my due date back a few days to may 5, but being the crazy person that i am i hope that its actually may 6. then the b-day will be 5.6.11... you know, 5+6 = 11. yay! mathematical birthdays! i am the dorkiest mom ever. so we got to see the tiny baby, and there was actually something to see this time! woohoo! we also got to see and hear the heartbeat which was going strong. and the doctor even said that he would be very surprised if we lost the baby just because both of the ultrasounds so far have looked so normal, so he truly believes that this baby will be fine, it was really reassuring to hear him say that. im actually really liking this new dr a lot. he totally gets my craziness. i like that.

and finally, the new baby hates me and all foods that i consume. i cant even remember the last time that i ate something and actually felt good. i feel like vomitting almost constantly and yesterday it finally happened with a vengence when the hubs and i went out to lunch. i think i had maybe three bites of my sammy when the littles dropped in juice cup. so i pick it up and go to the bathroom to clean it up, but when i get there i absolutely hated the smell of the bathroom and immediately started gagging. terribly for me and all other patrons of panera, the main door to the b-room was open, so i hold back the pukage and shut the big door then run back into the stall where i am gagging uncontrollably. i look at the dirty floor and this further disgusts me so i start vomitting up the little but that i had eaten. disgusting. and this poor woman walks in to use the bathroom like a normal person only to be met with the wonderful sounds and smells of the pregnant women in the stall next to her, i cant imagine that that is what she hoped to encounter upon her entrance to the bathroom before enjoying her lunch. so, i am very sorry lady, but i dont think it was necessary for you to stand outside the bathroom to give me a dirty look as i left the area, next time i might puke on you.

my awesome downtown.

i had my first 'real' ob appointment today at my new practice... (had to switch because of a change in insurance)

and i am really super happy with how it went! woot!

i met the dr and he went over my previous pregnancy info, problems, and questions. and then he offered to do an ultrasound after i promised that i would not cry or freak out in any way if we didnt see a heartbeat because im so early.

he decides to just go ahead and do my exam in the ultrasound room instead of making me strip down twice to just move down the hallway. while hes checking out the downtown which i was nervous about for some reason... you would think after having a million people check it out with the last pregnancy it would be old hat, but nope, still got all tense. anyway, he does the whole downtown check and asks how long ago it was that i gave birth, i tell him that my son will be one year in two weeks and he says that i 'healed very nicely' ha ha!!! he even said that he never wouldve thought that i had ever given birth. i guess all those awesome kegels i did the last time were totally worth it! weird, but funny. i kinda liked that he was so candid, clearly i operate the same way.

link to kegel refresher

the dr shows me the ultrasound screen and i see a little black spot which is the baby, no heartbeat yet but thats ok, im going back in two weeks and we should definitely see it by then. so i now have a picture of my little black dot. woohoo! bummer that we didnt see the heartbeat but at least it was verified that the fertilized egg actually made it to the uterus so thats a good thing.

i love pickles.

this is going to sound like absolute craziness because im only about 4.5 weeks pregnant, but i have already thrown up in my mouth twice, gagged while brushing my teeth, peed a little when i sneezed, and eaten an entire jar of pickles... and let me just tell you that about a week before i got my positive, the hubs asked if i had eaten any pickles lately and when i told him i finished the jar he said that that was all the confirmation that he needed... ha ha! way to go hubs, predicting the future based on my outta control pregnancy eating habits!

i have a feeling that this pregnancy may be even more outta control than the last.

and on top of all that im pretty sure that i now know what it feels like to have ADD. i was driving the mom & sis around the other day and i was the absolute worst driver in history. i was swerving all over the road and i just could not pay attention. i consider myself an alright driver, ive only gotten one ticket, and im even more cautios now that i have my precious cargo in the back seat. but for the life of me i could not get it together and i was consciously making an effort to pay attention. terrible.

and i keep forgetting everything. i will literally be having a conversation and i will forget what i have just said. i am a crazy person.

the 1st appt is wednesday with the ob nurse and to get some bloodwork done and then i go back in on thursday to meet with the doctor! woohoo!!!!

my pee is totally good.

i peed on another stick this morning around 5 am, and we got another very, very faint positive! woohoo!!! i cannot even believe that it worked on our first round of fertility meds... the last time it took three rounds. its craziness!

and i know all about the waiting until the first trimester is over before you go spreading the news, but i just kept thinking about how boring my blog would be if i tried to pretend that i wasnt pregnant for the next three months... and we're going to a wedding next weekend, and without a doubt in my mind, all of our friends wouldve call me out for not drinking and it wouldve been figured out anyway.

and if we have another miscarriage (which we're not because this is all about positive thinking and i am assuming that all you wonderful readers out there are praying for us) :) you guys are gonna hear about it. i mean thats what this blog is all about, me being terribly honest about all things relating to me and pregnancy.

so woohoo!!! kraby #2 is on the way!!!