OH EM GEE!!!

um.... ok so i know i just posted a couple hours ago with my poo poo thoughts of the negative pregnancy test BUT...

i went back and checked the test again and there is the very faintest of faint lines!!!! OMG!!! i have a bunch of negative nancy's around me and they want me to test again in the morning so i will, but i took another test this evening and i got another very faint line, so in my head two very faint, but positive tests = pregnant to me! woohoo!

so i am going to bed a very happy girl, and i will let everyone know what the test looks like tomorrow.

please check out my very faint tests below:

my pee is no good.

so i was supposed to start today and still no signs of the dreaded aunt flo other than a little light cramping which in my hopeful head i attributed to implantation cramping, the day before yesterday...

i just took a test and got a negative. i guess theres still a chance i could be pregnant because false negatives happen all the time, but im not trying to get my hopes up too much. because yeah, we didnt get a positive until we were like 7/8 weeks with the very first pregnancy but looking back and now knowing a little more about how things work, i shouldve known that was a bad sign. it took that long for my hcg levels to be high enough for a test to detect which meant that they werent multiplying fast enough, and then we lost the pregnancy... blegh.

this whole "maybe im pregnant, maybe im not" thing is the poo poo. i feel for all you other ladies out there that have gone or are going through the same thing.

i peed on a stick!

so, after a year of trying and obsessively testing on the exact day i was supposed to start my period with no luck, i had finally given up. i told wade that i wanted to put the whole 'trying' thing on hold.

they say as soon as you stop trying...
i was more than four days late before i took even one test this time! that is amazing, you have no idea what its like for a woman trying to conceive... every month spending no less than $20 on pregnancy tests, taking and charting your temperature every single day, taking crazy fertility meds, and thinking every single symptom of regular old pms is a sign of pregnancy... it literally turns you into a crazy hormonal mess.

SO.... after deciding to put everything on hold for awhile, we finally got a positive! i really didnt even believe it at first, i was on the phone with my mom when i read the results and could barely even tell her what it said. and since then my only thoughts on the subject have been 'that its so crazy.'